Every morning since we recomitted, I wake up next to my husband and feel happy. I feel his hand graze my leg my body delights. Every morning I kiss his lips I am thankful that he’s laying next to me and we chose to fight this battle together.
But there are days that begin so wonderfully and as I drive to work my mind begins to sink into a depression. Like today. I was so filled with happiness when we were together that morning but my mood began to change once I was alone in the car. I was about to text my husband to tell him: “I am having a rough time today. I’ll need extra support.” But then I stopped. I realized I was in control of my happiness or sadness. I choose to dwell on the facts I cannot change. So as I walked into my office I wondered if I could change my mood by focusing my attention on the moment I was in and the present.
It’s amazing how much happier I became when I took control over my day. I didn’t think about her for the rest of the day. In fact, around 10 a.m. my husband sent me a sexy email telling me how much he enjoyed our evening together. I blushed and smiled… happy to have a distraction that made me smile. We exchanged emails throughout the day and when I left work I stopped by his office to surprise him. He was so happy to see me…. so happy to share a cup of coffee and take a much needed break from his work day. Why is this the first time I ever stopped by as a surprise in years? We work 20 minutes from each other and yet we acted like it was a world away… because we were a world away from each other on some level. Never again. During that visit to his office we decided to have lunch once a week together. We realized how much happier and better our day becomes when we are involved together. I have to remember this… always.